back during the crusades my family converted to Christianity. i found out through genealogy trees that my whole family on all sides is Jewish. I was raised in many churches. I wanted so much to be more like Jesus. I found out He was Jewish and followed the Torah. one day in catechism i asked the teacher why we failed to follow Torah teaching that tells us to worship on the last day of the week. she sent me to the chaplain. the chaplain told me to look for the Adventists. they had yet to reach our area. later i joined them. then i found out about my Jewish heritage. I knew at that moment i was more like Jesus than any Christian. later i met a Jewish Adventist and he sent me to the Messianics. when i got to the synagogue, i felt i belonged. i am myself unique but i fit in. i knew i had to keep my Savior. He had always been a part of me. later i found out that we are to bring Him to the masses but once He is thrown away by them we are to 'wipe our feet' and move on. that means to stop trying to bring that one who has thrown Him away to Him for Adonai has plans for that one. then lately i found out that many say that those who turn away from Him will spend a year in hell of their own making then after that spiritual year they will join us in olam haba. there will be 144,000 jews going to heaven but the rest will go to olam haba. olam haba will be like heaven and so we all will be awarded equally. i will always love you all even if you hate me or Him. hate is murder. so i avoid it at all costs. even if you think that hate is other than murder you must know its bad side effects. it poisons the hater while doing zilch to the hated. why hate if it only harms you? i have been the victim of hate in many ways. i have seen its poison bring others to their death. i have seen it kill the best in people. i do wish you would join me in my faith but i honor your choice to stay where you are. i will ask you one time to follow but only once. the last thing i want to do is offend you. please stop offending me by calling my faith false or by calling my Leader false. i have honored your faith and your choice in leaders. please show me the same. hating who i follow is hating me because i choose to be as much like Him as i can be. trust me when i say when my time comes i will welcome it. i am so tired of the evil in this world and that means hate as well. i have seen evil up close. i just learned that evil was personified by the Christians only. it was a way to say the devil made me do it rather than take on the blame. who wants to say they have an evil side? i hear in every moment. i ignore it as much as i can and atone when i see that i have listened to it. Please stop asking me to give up My Savior as i never ask you to give up your leaders. i wonder sometimes why you would follow someone who is human and therefore far from perfect rather than someone who obeyed every Torah Teaching without fail till the day He died. but i know that is your choice and you may make it however you want. it is beyond me why you choose the way you do just as it is beyond you why i choose the way i do. i hope you love so much that you let me have my choice for i love you that much. even if you treat me with hate i will still be there for you because i love you. please treat me the way you would like to be treated. it would show me the greatest love. if you want me to turn you away from what you know to be true then keep up trying to turn me away from what i know to be true. otherwise honor that i have chosen. i have prayed about it and the answer i got was to stick with Yeshua. if i a wrong the worst i will get is hell till i go to olam haba. in either case please honor me as something other than your slave who must do as you say.

August 04, 2012 at 07:58PM