from blogger:there is time when ppl like me who love e1, have to shove ppl out of their life. i hate those times. i get tired from all the bull that says: i should only love those who are nice to me all the time. it makes me feel like im drowning in fire. the part that hurts the most are ppl who say they love God, yet throw me away bcs i love ppl they hate. so you hate them, stop trying to boss me around. if i want to love someone who hates me, then that is my choice rather than anyone else's choice. if you are going to hate me for it then do so, thats your choice. if you think im going to be more than nice to someone who hates me, like making you more than healthy, you will see me laugh at you. then you will see me cry for you.if you think someone s abusing me, thats my choice too. if you think someone is bad, thats your choice, my choice maybe that even if they are all bad, i will still love them. it is just how i made myself be. it took many years to become forgiving. i hope i always keep the newly learned patience i have. i hope that my patience will grow quickly. i hope my patience will grow without anyone forcing it to grow. hope springs eternal. if you think im going to keep you in my life after you have tried to boss or abuse me, you find out you are very wrong. i may from time to time help you stay healthy, but thats all. when i have grown more in The Savior, may welcome you back to my life. i have done so with many folks. just keep in mind that i am the only one who chooses what/who is in my life. i could live on the streets if i choose to knock someone out. i could become a hermit. i could have many or only a few in my life. it is all my choice. i will be making my own choices. it is abusive to try to make others do your will unless you may be God. i set this to public so that everyone who feels the same can share it. including you @terry baird http://bit.ly/15vWpMw

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